Temporary Hiatus...

So I am trying to write two books right now, and I am being distracted by the blogs I have, I am taking a break from this one at the moment. I will inform you when it will start up again. If you follow/subscribe to me, you will find out. I promise! :D

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Have a great summer, autumn, winter, and year! Well hopefully I will return before a year passes, who knows?

-HM

Ok so...

I know I have not been updating as much as I used to.

But I am a college kid now, with a life and lots of homework.
I will make it up to you in the summer.

If I get tired of writing my books I will stop by and write about music that moves me.

Just for you! :)

I'll see ya all in the summer!

-HM

Melancholy In Love Pt. VII: 23:30 by Perfume

I love Perfume, but this song and their other song, "Kiss & Music" are my favorites. "23:30" is their best slow slow they've (only) made. All I can say is that this song really calms down the numbness and anger I feel. It's hard to feel HappilyMelancholic all the time when people don't like you....
I also love this song because it reminds me of love. I think is that's the reason why it calms me down. Because it has that sense of love, calm, and understanding.
The instrumental is great too. Perfect to sleep to and perfect contemplative music too.
Free Downloads
23:30
23:30 [Instrumental]
Kiss & Music [Bonus Free Track]

I hope you enjoy 23:30 by Perfume.

My Favorite Song: It's Time by Maria Taylor -Personally Explained-

It's Time*

Love Me Bad Idea Oh No Flashback.
Personally for me it's more, "Don't love me, cause I'll just push you away".
Whisper I Barely Hear Okay Now Come Back.
For me it's "Inner voice I barely hear, please come back.
Hold (Let Me Down) Myself Up (Let Me Down)
For Each Let Down.
For this line it's a long story, basically to sum it up, I hold my head up high while people let me down all the time.
It Aches (Let Me Down) But It Feels Good (Let Me Down)
A Mistake (Let Me Down) Is Understood Now
At times in my life, when I am very sad I feel pain that aches and to me it feels good because I'm never able to feel sadness all the time. Most times in my life it is held in. Also, most times in my life I understand the mistakes I make or do.
It's Time, Can You Feel It? I'm Making A Change
There's A World I Need To Know
I feel the changes I'm making in my life and the changes of life itself, while I also want to see the world and do something better for the world too.
It's Time, Can You Feel It? I'm Making A Change
I Learned To Let It Go
I'm learning to let things go more, to free myself of the bad and focus more on the good.
I Don't Know You, But I Want To Now Oh No Flashback
This line is more about me my inner self and how I don't know much about me, myself because I've put myself aside to please people all the time. To see they're smiling faces, to put on that Seven Day Smile.
Careful, I'm Barely Here Okay, Now Come Back
Basically saying that my true self is barely shown and at most times it will go away whenever I'm around people afraid of what they might think if I show them my true self.

Hold (Let Me Down) Myself Up (Let Me Down)
For Each Let Down.

It Breaks (Let Me Down) But It Feels Good (Let Me Down) Separate (Let Me Down) I Knew It Would Now
This basically describes my friendship with people that took advantage of me cause I'd help them all the time. Our friendship would break and we'll eventually separate cause they weren't friends with me just my "helpful" side.

It's Time, Can You Feel It? I'm Making A Change
There's A World I Need To Know
It's Time, Can You Feel It? I'm Making A Change
I Learned To Let You Go

This last part is expressing my feelings of letting the people I "love" go, because why keep being with them when all they do is let me down and they just expect me to repay them with kindness or respect when I don't really get a break and when I do I don't even ask for it. I have to do a lot of things by myself so if I have to go alone I'll be fine with that.

Happily Nostalgic 2: Strawberry Swing by Coldplay

You know, when Coldplay released their recent album, Viva La Vida or Death & All His Friends, I didn't really want to have anything to do with it at first. Mostly because Violet Hill was ok and Viva La Vida never really moved me so I never really got into it like how the rest of the world did.
Then one day, I saw an advertisement for a new Bat For Lashes song. So, I checked it out and then I saw a list of music videos so I looked through and saw the Strawberry Swing music video. I watched it and was so amazed by the graphics and the design that I almost completely tuned out the song. After that I didn't really listen to the song again for about 7 months. I started listening to the song again because I was making mix CDs for some friends and stumbled upon it in my music collection. Just to say, I have so music that I don't really have time to remember every song I have. It's like having a Pandora on my Zune whenever I put all the songs on shuffle. So, I listened to Strawberry Swing again (audio only) and it moved me. The song was so nostalgic with the melody, sounds, and lyrics that it took me back to being a kid again. I really liked it.
After a couple of days of "re-discovering" Strawberry Swing, I watched the movie, My Sister's Keeper. During the last scene I was listening to Strawberry Swing in one ear while intensely watching the movie and the little girl Anna (Abigail Breslin) was going on about how no one did anything special for Kate (Sofia Vassilieva). She just died.
At first I was really sad by that. You lose someone you love and nothing really special happens for them.
People who are still living get monuments made after them all the time and don't deserve it and the good people that die are forgotten by everyone. Except for the loved ones, for the good people will always (unintentionally) leave an empty space in their families hearts.
Basically what I'm saying is that watching the last scene while listening to Strawberry really tugged my heart. My heart was tugged so hard that it was a sudden pull. A pull waiting to happen ever since my grandma died.
That pull must have been waiting for 15 years! This movie will tug at your heart too if you've lost someone that was really close to you. No matter how little you were when they passed away. I was 3 years old when my granny died and it still affects me to this day. She was a very good person. Granny is a saint if you compare her to Della Reese. That's how great of a person she was.

Anyways.....On with the music....

Strawberry Swing is such an ending song, an ending of a life song. The feeling you have when you listen to it, that feeling of nostaligia and memories of life before you passed. It's really moving and personal for many listeners of Coldplay.
I could go on and on about this song right now but I shouldn't, cause then I'll ramble on.

Here's Strawberry Swing by Coldplay.
Also, here's the music video.

Coldplay - Strawberry Swing from Hatem Zekri on Vimeo.

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Now I Know...........

Why I don't like talking to men that much. Almost every time I talk to a guy or hang out with one, they piss me off. Either by being really stupid, or really annoying. Plus with adult men it's more serious. From getting upset with me in believing in God the wrong way or getting disgusted with me because I'm not like all the other guys. I can't stand it. I'm in my room right now listening to a lot strong female vocal songs. Most of them from the Touched By An Angel Soundtrack. I love women. I love hanging out with strong, smart, independent women. I feel great when I do. They're kind of my security.
When ever a man pisses me off I go watch Roseanne or The L Word, Xena, or listen to the Touched By An Angel Soundtrack or a lot of songs with female vocals. I always try to get along with men, but it doesn't really work. I can't even stand to listen to male singers. That's how much I don't really like men. I think I might be a little misandric. Yet, there are some men that I get along with. But it's about 3. That's it. Not good huh?
I just wanted to have a fun year and a MAN had to screw it up. At this rate I'll be right back into square one when it comes to socializing with people. I just want to live my life. Why can I just have that much?

What Should I Do?

It's so strange that I don't like men even though I am a man.